Wednesday, August 29, 2007

112 TO GO!!

I can't believe I lost weight this week! I just can't!! I hopped on the scale yesterday and it said i'd actually gained 4 pounds!! Is this actually possible? I've never had that happen before!

A loss is a loss! I'm glad to see results, even if it IS at the lower end of the 1-2lbs a week scale. I am committed to stay on track this week! I have to eat more vegetables, they help fill me up and are zero points! I add some Molly McButter and they are even better, and still FREE!

I did find out today, though, that a bagel is 5 points! The WW book says it's 3, but not the ones I'm eating I guess! I only have bagels (a RARE treat!) and 100 Calorie English Muffins in my house this week! NO BREAD! It is harder for me to make a sandwich with an English Muffin! I have a sneaking suspicion that if I just cut down on bread I will lose more weight! You see, I have a bread ADDICTION and know that I need to carefully watch my intake. I used to eat 6 pieces of bread/toast at almost every meal! It's no wonder I weighed 300 lbs once upon a time!

I have also committed myself to working out on my Gazelle at least twice this week! It's actually a good place to take out my frustrations, too! I'm not doing too bad on my water intake, most days. Milk is another problem. We drink 1% instead of skim (just can't do it) and it's still 2 points! UGH! I will learn a balance, soon, I hope!

Does anyone know how many servings of fruits/veggies are in V8 Splash? I found the Diet version, VERY GOOD, and it's ZERO POINTS for one cup! I was just wondering how many servings, if any, that I'd count for this!

I go to the doctor next Wednesday and I've lost weight since seeing her. She freaked when I'd just lost 8 pounds, so I can't imagine how she'll react to 20!!

Does anyone else have negative self-image issues? People tell me I look slimmer, but I can't see it! Will this ever change? Someone told me that it's good that I don't see it cuz it will motivate me to keep going, however, as you can see by my last blog....not sure that's always the case!!

Ok, here's a little more humor for my girls:

A woman goes to the doctor for her yearly physical.
The nurse starts with certain basic items.
"How much do you weigh?" she asks.
"115," she says.
The nurse puts her on the scale.
It turns out her weight is 140.
The nurse asks, "Your Height?"
"5 feet, 8 inches," she says.
The nurse checks and see that she only measures 5'5".
She then takes her blood pressure.
And tells the woman it is very high.
"Of course it's high!" She screams,
"When I came in here I was tall and slender!
Now I'm short and fat!"


How come when you mix water and flour together you get glue. . . . ?
and then you add eggs and sugar. . . .


Where did the glue go?
You know darned well where it went!
That's what makes the cake
Stick to your BUTT!

We all need a good laugh, keep on smiling!!

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

I'm lost!

I apologize ahead of time for writing in red. I guess it kinda matches my mood, along with black. I have been reading a lot of your blogs and I am so happy for all of you!! I know the strength and courage that it takes to change our diets to become healthy, happy people and sometimes, I ask myself if it's really worth it!! I mean, whats it really going to hurt by eating that double cheeseburger and french fries, anyway? Is anyone besides me really going to know? No, not unless I tell them, right? But, it will hurt, every single day that I add those pounds on, not just physically, but emotionally as well. I eat when I get stressed and even when I'm sad. It's not the fact that I'm eating, It's WHAT I am eating. Michael has been trying to help more and more, like not asking to go out for pizza and stuff, but I know it's not easy on him, either. He doesn't like veggies and likes all the stuff I can't eat! It's so damn frustrating, and I just want to give up! My true friends tell me that they can definitely see a difference in the few pounds I've lost, but I just don't see it. That upsets me and makes me want to go eat something terrible! I just don't know what to do anymore! I got on the scale a day early and of course it wasn't kind. It's my fault, ENTIRELY, but I keep eating the crap I shouldn't be! I think since I've started WW, I've had ONE WEEK of staying entirely on track! That's 4 months of cheating! I just don't know what to do, how to help myself to stop cheating! I don't excercise, either. I mean, I look at my Gazelle every day and think, Yup, gotta get on it! Yeah, I'll do that later. And, later never happens!
Well, I go to the doctor next Wednesday and I've lost just about 20 lbs since my visit in March. I'm sure she'll be happy for me, but I'm not sure I really care.

Monday, August 27, 2007

A Little Humor

One for the girls

Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my shape to keep.
Please no wrinkles, Please no bags
And please lift my butt before it sags.
Please no age spots, Please no gray
And as for my belly, Please take it away.
Please keep me healthy, Please keep me young,
And thank you Dear Lord, For all that you've done.

One saggy boob said to the other saggy boob: "If we don't get some support soon, people will think we're nuts."

Hope these make your day.

Friday, August 24, 2007


Wow! I am SO glad it's Friday! I am so friggin' exhausted! I only work about 50 hrs or so between the two jobs, but still! My day starts at about 4:30 and I finally go to bed around 10! Anyways.
So far today, I made an omelet of two eggs, broccoli, onions and green peppers! I didn't eat any toast (of course, I didn't have any bread to eat!) and then for lunch I made a pasta salad of mini bow ties, carrots and corn (it's premade from Schwans) and then I added about 1 1/2 T. of Mayo ( no light, didn't have any!!) and about 2T. of grated Parmesan Cheese and then sprinkled Mrs. Dash and Season Salt on it. Let it meld together for a few hours....MAN, was that good! I think it was around 9 pts as I had two cups of pasta stuff. I think I have 7 points left and I don't know what I'm going to eat. Maybe a Schwan's pizza. They have 7" pizza's that are only 4 points for the whole thing. They have a whole-wheat crust and are a little bit bland, but oh well, it's something!
Has anyone else had a problem when they dropped one point? I can't seem to get it right! I used to never even eat all of my points, and now it's hell trying not to eat MORE! UGH! I think I was doing better planning before, maybe that's what it was. Hmmm.....have to figure that one out some more!
Well, have a good weekend all!
P.S. Do they have a 'Sneaky Barbie'? I think that's me....I still sneak snacks and don't always write them down!

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

That's Better!

Ok, much better number from the 'Metal Devil' this morning. Which also put me in a more positive mood towards my weight loss goal! I CAN DO IT!!! I treated myself to Subway today. The treat part was that I put cheese on the Turkey Sub! LOL Oh well, such is life.

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

That's it....I QUIT!!

No, not really, but I want to! I am chaning my weigh-in day to Wednesday. I've had it. I lost .4 and that's not good enough! I am sick of trying to lose weight, I really am! It's so hard and I don't see the results, although my friends do. I'm just not sure I believe them, I think they are just telling me what I want to hear. UGH! ANOTHER pity party, I'm sick of this. It really is a slow and painful journey, isn't it? I know I will get through this, it's just taking longer than I wanted it to. I am still trying to do this on my own. I have seriously thought about trying Alli, but I know that isn't going to really teach me anything! I also know, and have yet to follow through when I need to, that I have to get on my Gazelle at least 3 times a week to start my exercise routine. Ok, I'm going now, maybe I'll find a HUGE something naughty and eat it!! No, I'm not really going to do that, I promise!!

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Better Today!

Well, I am in a much better mood today and have a more positive outlook on my weight loss, today at least! I spent 20 minutes on my Gazelle today! I am so PROUD of myself! The digital thing is dead as I need batteries so I just watched TV for awhile and refused to look at the time for quite a while! When I finally looked at it, I had been on for 15 min. and made myself stay on longer! But, because I looked at all, it made the time go slower afterward. Gotta figure out something different for next time!
I went over my daily points by 8 last night! :( Was doing very well, had one point left and then my husband asked if I wanted half of his French Bread Pizza! I should have said NO! UGH! Oh well, must remember to take those off of my flex points!
40 more days until vacation! Thank god the beer I drink is only 1 point! LOL Must try harder to keep track this time!

Monday, August 13, 2007

No Change!! :(

Well, I have had my first weigh-in of no change. I guess that's better than a gain, any day! Well, I want to change my WI day, but I don't think it will help me! I need to learn to eat the 'right' way, every day with an occasional cheat, not meaning once a week or so! UGH!! Oh well, I must learn this lesson in order to continue losing weight!
I may have started my hairdresser on WW too! She was told by one of her clients that it doesn't work, but I have actually proven them wrong! She knows what a struggle this is/has been for me and sees the positive results and wants to see them for herself! That makes me feel good, I think!
Only 42 more days until I go on vacation, again! I'm so excited! I really hope I can stay focused while I am there as it took me like 1 1/2 months to lose the damn 5 pounds I gained in May while on vacation!!!!
Well, I hope everyone is doing awesome! I read your blogs as often as I can, which isn't saying much, but I do try! Keep up the GREAT work! Toodles!

Monday, August 6, 2007

I guess so . . . .

Well, I'm going to change my weigh-in day to Wednesday to match the true WW peeps! I got on the scale this morning and I lost, a little bit. The weekends are just too hard to eat right when we are always going to someone's house. I know that isn't an excuse, but it will give me more time to lose whatever I gained eating on the weekend! Or, in your expert opinions, is that just going to justify me eating whatever the heck I want as I have more time to lose it? That's what I'm thinking. Well, I lost .5 this week.
We went to some friends' house yesterday and he made pulled pork! OMG! I couldn't stop at just one, or two for that matter either! I ended up eating 3 of them!!! They were so good! I had some chips, too. But, I don't think I went overboard on those, and some fresh veggies too.
I got on my bike yesterday, for the first time in like 15 years or so. O M G!!! I barely rode it at all and I was ready to scream from the pain! And to think, I was going to sign up for some bike marathon to help a good cause!!! Not this year, no sirree! Oh well, I just have to keep doing it because I know it will get easier!!
The metal devil is still my friend, he'd be my best friend is I just QUIT CHEATING!